Backward and Forwards

​Sometime, I think my life is going good and then things turns out not as, I though they would be. I feel like, everything always goes backwards instead of going forward for good.

Something’s Missing

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The last time, I remember having my family all together was a couple a months ago, and while I know we’ll all be together again soon. I feel there’s always something in the way of that happening. Even though, I know they are close by, it’s still not the same. I miss those loud afternoon of nothing were you know, that you had your whole family in one roof, which just felt right and safe. However, with all the shit that we’ve been through these past couple of month, I really don’t know when we will all be back together again. They are the missing pieces to my puzzle and without them; I’m just a bunch of pieces laid out on the table. Therefore, while I know this is just a small setback, this feeling of completion cannot come soon enough. However, until then, I will just have the memories of what was once happier time, and pray for happier times to come.

When I Look Outside My Window

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Sometimes, I think I’m crazy for thinking or acting the way I do. I know that I’m a very weird individual and I like that about myself. I’m a loner with a gigantic imagination and an even bigger mouth, that doesn’t seem to shout the fuck up. I’m not the tea that you prefer to drink and that’s alright with me, because I’m more for those who wanna try something new and exciting. Once you drink me, you’ll come in to my world and you’ll never want to leave. However, until the rest of the basic lambs in the field catches up to my fairly odd self. I’ll just enjoy doing my own thing like usual and watch as the others follow the herd.

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Spoke To Soon!

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In my last post which seemed like years ago (Actually it was just a couple of weeks ago. Miss me yet? Didn’t think so!). I kind of bit the wiener to hard and set myself for the inevitable, which was just around the corner waiting for me like a mugger, who likes to take away the calm you’ve accumulated for yourself. Well guess what? I hit me all right, that fucker hit me hard and now I’m stuck in the same situation, I was last year! I don’t want to get into details, but it feels like a horrible Deja vu, which I want nothing more than to just wake up from it. Here, I thought I was doing so well with this thing called life; sure, I got bored and wanted something exciting to happen. However, I never asked for this too happened to me and to happen to the people around me as well. I wish I could have just shut my mouth and never said anything in the first place, but that not how life works. I know shit like this happens all the time, but not twice in a almost a row and not at the end of the year. I guess when horrible things happen to you, you don’t really have a time period or a schedule of when it will happen. If you did, then things would be just too easy and who would want that? Me!

They Wanna Stop Me!

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Back in the day if you were a teen in the 90’s (or at any decade really!) and you were trying to be down with your peoples, you had to be just like them. When I mean just like them, I’m referring to how they would dress, down to the pair of kicks they would so covet. However, I was never like that, sure I was obsessed with their sneakers, because my parents could never offer them. Sure, the clothes they wore were giving on evil eye by yours truly. However, I was never down with the baggy pair showing off my unmentionables. I did go through a long to the knees white t-shirt phase, which quickly went out the window, when I took a glimpse of myself in the mirror. As time went by and I became what I fear the most…an adult. I realized that no matter how much I spend on clothes or not, it really doesn’t matter. You can wear those $200 dollar sneakers (which you saved up for), with a $2 dollar shirt and pants you found at the good will and still look good. It all depends on you, your attitude and the confidence to know you look good. Who cares if you can’t afford those must-haves, it’s whatever you drape on yourself, which will make people want to have what you have. No matter how much money you spent or didn’t!

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What’s New Pussy Cat?

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Let’s talk about fashion for a bit, because it’s seemed that lately I’ve to dome and gloom to do anything or talk about else. So a couple weeks ago, I picked out this top for H&M, as just a plan b because at first I didn’t like it. 1. I hate cats with a passion, 2. I didn’t think that it would go with the concept I was going for and 3. I mean it’s cats for Christ Sake! However, after giving it a second and third look, I told myself just use it and see what can happen. I’m so glad that I listened to my intuition and just went with it, because I’m a big fan of kitsch just not cats. However, my friend and model Val, worked it and we both were happy with the results!

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