The last time, I remember having my family all together was a couple a months ago, and while I know we’ll all be together again soon. I feel there’s always something in the way of that happening. Even though, I know they are close by, it’s still not the same. I miss those loud afternoon of nothing were you know, that you had your whole family in one roof, which just felt right and safe. However, with all the shit that we’ve been through these past couple of month, I really don’t know when we will all be back together again. They are the missing pieces to my puzzle and without them; I’m just a bunch of pieces laid out on the table. Therefore, while I know this is just a small setback, this feeling of completion cannot come soon enough. However, until then, I will just have the memories of what was once happier time, and pray for happier times to come.
Lately my insides have been covered in a dark hue, combined with Lydia Deetz, Marc Jacobs Fall 2016 and Rodarte orgy-ed in together. There’s probably no real reason why my internal human cave is tinted in black or the feels or lack thereof has me feeling nothing. However, for some weird and maybe unhealthy reason it feels somewhat nice not to sense anything and just go about life, as if the lights are still on, but clear there’s nobody home at the moment!