Despite my circumstances, there’s nothing more I like more, then having a day with my favorite model/friend Natalie! She gives me hope that, I’m bigger than my problems give me credit for! I had the best day and I totally forgot my bullshit hard knocks, and reminded me, that should just continue with what I like. There should be more friends like here and I’m glad she’s one of them!
Hello! It’s been awhile since I’ve been here and I must say, it’s kind of nice. While I wish, I could say, I was away on vacation or something fabulous like that. I hate to break it to you but no I haven’t and from the looks of things, it will be awhile before I can get to have any kind of vaca or whatnot. I’ve been stuck in a black hole and it’s been nothing but hell on earth for a month or so. I don’t want to go into anything detail because it’s too much to describe and I’m still deal with shit, that it so difficult to explain. However, while my spirits right now are broken and I’ve totally abandon this medium, that I’ve somewhat enjoy. I know, that is no excuse for my absent and I will try my hardest to keep in touch. Just hang in there with me because I know the hell, that I’m going through right now. Well hopefully soon go away and I’ll be back to myself, until then I just have to focus on myself and see where life will take me.
Not to sound all sentimental or whatnot (Too late I guess!). However, recently I can’t stop listening to music, without thinking about a certain someone. It’s hard to hear a Drake song or a Mariah Carey slow jam, without him popping in my head. I try so hard to forget this person, who was not a good person to begin with, but how can I if most of the songs I play remind me of him. Even walking down the street, I hear a car blasting a song that immediately makes my head fill up with thoughts of him and what could have been. Fuck, I would love to wash my ear; mind and brain of him, but it seem harder than I thought. I can’t bare to not listen to music, but the feeling of longing and pain that triggers me; just by one musical note isn’t healthy. Neither is blocking my world from music that I love. I guess I’ll just have to deal with it until he slowly goes away.
Summer will be gone soon and all I can say is thank god for that! I never was a big fan of the summer or the heat that came with it, it over stayed it’s welcome after July ended. Fall will be here soon and while everyone is more obsessed with all the pumpkin flavored junk, that they will be consuming (Including me!). I’m more happy because to me it means, the beginning of the end of what summer brought, and mostly I’m just excited to wear my fall best. So, while I’ll be stuffing my face with some of those pumpkin flavored Oreo’s, at least I’ll be enjoying a row of those with, while wearing my new bomber jacket and some newly brought Timberland’s, that I can’t wait to take out the box! Here’s the fall and all that will bring with it!