After a slight nervous breakdown last week, which left me in a dark hole of nowhere, that no even the most power light could find the end of that endless black tunnel. I feel somewhat better about myself and I’m not lying to myself or whoever read this thing. I legit realized, that even though things weren’t what they seem to be (at least in my sad little mind), that doesn’t mean, that there’s any lemonade to be made from this experience. Sure, it took a lot of liquor, candy and crying like a little bitch to my friends to have this moment of clarity. However, as a good friend said to me “It’s sometimes the bad moments in life, which are gifts”! Now, while I might consider that to be bullshit, I took it with a grain of salt and just ate it up, because while all this shit maybe happening now. There’s some kind of reason why I can’t have what I want now, but when I do, I think that would be the biggest gift of all. I just can’t wait to unwrap it already!