I really don’t know how to describe this feeling but whatever it is, I don’t want it to go away. I feel like a whole new person , so much so that I can’t recognized myself in the process of this happiness, that I have inside of my dark being. I don’t know how to go about this feeling, but I really don’t care. I just want to leave it the way it is and see where it takes me. I’m afraid if I’m too happy or content with these unexpected feelings, that it will go away and I’ll go back to my old self. Which I don’t wanna go back to! I mean, I’m still myself but will a better attitude about things, which is frighten to admit to myself and to people, who know me a certain way. However, at this point I don’t give a fuck, because I’ve been waiting so long for this and I’ll be damn if I just lose it now!