The Hungry to be Free

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I knew I was gay from the word go and ever since that discovery of my true self. I would try my hardest to keep that secret, with lock and key for as long as I could. Therefore, in order for me to do so, I would have to create a double life for myself. At first, I thought it would be the easiest thing to do. It would be the greatest role I would play and no one would ever notice. However, as time when by and the real me slowly started to develop, it was harder to keep the image, that the outside world preceded me as. By the time my mid twenties hit, I decided to ditch the act and come out as myself. No matter what the repercussions would be. Nevertheless, I don’t think I was ever that good of an actor in the first place, because as I start telling everyone my secret. I came to realize that everyone already new, my not so concealed mystery. Guess everyone already knew what I only confirmed to be the truth. Even so, after that, I felt the weight of the world lift from my body and I was no longer the person, that I thought they wanted me to be. The hunger to be free was set and all I could do now is just run and scream out for joy. I am who I am and no matter what anybody thought, said or protested. I was going to do what was best for me and if you didn’t agree, then that was there problem, because I can’t do anything but to be true to who I am. In addition, who I am now is much better, then who I was trying to be in the first place. Which was just a hollow shell of my true self!

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