Today for some weird reason I’ve been feeling very murky and lurky. It’s not as if I had a bad week or whatnot. However, a wave of depression as hit me hard and all I want to do is wash ashore to dry land, where I can breathe again. Not even a day of shopping for sale items can get this feeling to go away. While I’m trying to say away from these crazy thoughts, that control my mind. I can’t help but to go there from time to time, maybe it’s a force of habit for me. Maybe it’s the only thing I know, that can control my otherwise sour but sweet disposition. I know I should try to get out of my head and living in the now, like all the other “normal” people do. Nevertheless, how can I? When it’s hard to be sunny, with all these clouds surrounding me. Waiting on them to rain on parade.